Saturday, 29 November 2014

not quite normal

To the centre and on
The pendulum swings
Life carries on
But not quite normal. 
The little life I held inside me
Has been incinerated with dignity
While its living sleeping bag 
Drips, seeps slowly out of me. 
I am not quite normal
My pendulum will continue
But forever miss a beat
There has been no dignity. 

Wednesday, 23 October 2013

Sometimes at night

Sometimes at night when I am holding you
I see the face of the man you will become
The angle of your cheek
The o of your mouth
Tell me your future
More than the palm of your hand
Sometimes it is as though I am holding an adult in my arms
Instead of the child I would protect with my life
Moments or minutes later
Your face returns to its soft childishness
Plump skin and lips and cheeks
I see him still
My son the man

Tuesday, 16 April 2013

I can't believe you're mine and I get to keep you

Kamikaze tears leap from my eyes
Drawn by the gravity of your face
Your hot chubby hand
Fingers curled around my thumb
"I love you. Don't leave me"
Whispered into uncomprehending ears
I watch the rise and fall of your chest
You are the centre of my world.

With every breath I know
I want you to mourn my death one day
I want you to outlive me
I kiss you
I can't believe you're mine and I get to keep you.

Sunday, 22 April 2012

beautiful lie

Strange living in a twilight world
Where no-one knows
The only thing that matters to me

Strange to be living a lie
A beautiful lie
Held close so close to me

Pushing away all that can harm
Turning away from words
Not letting anyone in to see

Monday, 5 March 2012

Crack

Crack
Out like a light
Smack of torch on head
Echoing in my darkness
Taking out all the brightness
Breaking glass on skull
Spark out in the hallway
Stars circling my mindframe
Cry out to the bloody heavens
Cut back to the moment
Snap neck back and feel it
Crack

Friday, 2 March 2012

good intentions

I'm meant to be writing one of these every day
A rhyming couplet, a stanza, a short
The pressure's too much, though nobody knows
So it's only in my own head I'm caught
I'd like to have some stamina, some staying power, some will
But the voices in my head remain thought
I don't regret the good intent, the time I've spent to take a pen
And write a verse or two or one or nought.

quiet

Say nothing
Let's never speak of this again.